21-fm-uk Blog

Today was a waste. I was woken up by a phone call, ended up arguing with said caller, and cried for ages. i just felt like a failure. Said caller has been hurt gazillions of times by me, and i'm not proud, i do love her, love her intensely in fact. My chosen career is going nowhere, and quite frankly, i'm stopping caring, which i know isn't good.
i just wish i had squillions of pounds i guess, but who doesn't? I just don't want to be struggling my whole life.
I have done nothing all day, even though i said to myself all week i would clean the flat today. but i just couldn't be bothered. maybe tomorrow evening. i need to get rid of the smell, i can't figure out wht it is, it was still there when i cleaned last time as well, but it's getting worse!!!
Meh, this blog post is pointless. im sure it will get more interesting once i'm doing more than just lazing around or working at a shop.

i am sat here thinking how to start this post and the editing window says FUKD.... weird.
It's great to know I have a day off tomorrow. I haven't had a day off since Tuesday, and that wasn't much of a day off, as I spent it running around Oxford Street with CVs. I'm currently looking for a full time job, as I need to take a year out from uni.
I normally find my job quite boring, but this week has been great. I've managed to achieve shit loads, including figuring out that Visual Merchandising is FUN!
I'm thinking of going for a VM job, but most things like that require experience, which is a bummer. How am I meant to get experience???
I really want to get a job at HMV but there's nothing going! I'm in the middle of applying for JLP, but I have a feeling it'll go nowhere. I just don't get the feeling. It's really frustrating that I can't get a job, I'm a good worker!!!!
Any suggestions???

This is a blog to note down my thoughts. The thoughts of a person with no gender. Or maybe I do have a gender.... who knows...... Most entries will me be rambling on about work, music etc. But occasionally, you will hear my thoughts on being genderly challenged.

Here's a little background info:

I grew up in the midlands, in a not too well off family. I was bullied at school for many things. I went to college, got a diploma in music tech, as well as a long term relationship that I fucked up, and more recently I've done my first year at uni. However, I'm about to take a year out as I've had a tough year and uni is the last thing I want to deal with right now. I'm trying desperately to get a full time job, but in the current economic climate, it's tough.

I currently work part time in a clothes shop.

More to come.